“We are not the same persons this year as last; nor are those we love. It is a happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.”
~ William Somerset Maugham
The irony of relationship is that we make commitments to another person, not knowing who that person will be when he inevitably changes. We make a vow to another, not knowing how we ourselves will change. Not only is change inevitable, but the direction is unpredictable. Some changes do not disrupt partnered life; others can shake a relationship to the core.
Like most people, I’ve been subject to several life altering changes which have propelled me out of certain relationships and friendships. While people naturally yearn for familiarity, it can also hold a person back if they do not let go when a relationship has run its course. The quotation “Everything I have ever let go of has claw marks in it” made me both laugh and cringe simultaneously. In my case it would be “everyone” I have ever let go of.
When I love someone, the last thing I want to do is let them go, even if it’s the higher path. I’ve started to become more disciplined and honest with myself about when it’s time to part ways. Although it may be difficult for ME to say goodbye, if I keep going forward with someone when I know it’s not right, I am holding the other person back from life experiences, and therefore harming him. Yes, detaching from someone I have loved intensely feels worse than a full body wax, but if I truly love the person, I must let them go. When songs like “All you need is love” start playing, I just shake my head and tell myself “well, not always.”
How do you know a relationship is over? Sure, it’s easy to enter a relationship, but the exit is usually so much trickier. A few questions I ask myself:
1. What are my motives for staying with this person?
2. How do I feel when I’m around this person?
3. Are we headed the same direction?
4. Does this person respect me for who I am? Do I respect him or her?
5. Am I able to work through problems with this person?
6. Are we able to grow both individually and as a couple?
People outgrow each other. Circumstances change. How do you repair a broken heart? One thought that helps soften the sting: focus on feeling grateful for the lessons you taught each other and the experiences you have shared. It is perfect as it is, there does not need to be “more” as we often crave. I sometimes like to picture myself dancing with the other above the earth in an alternate reality, symbolizing the idea that when we get close to someone, a part of them remains in us, and we in them. It’s overwhelming to think about how we may encounter change with another. Through allowing people to touch our lives, even if it’s only for a time, we become who we are meant to be.